To be committed to your seeking, to be committed to your practices is an ongoing process.
Well, definetely you have to give up your ego. It ts not that you surrender yourself to some form or image; it is basically a surrender of all that which impedes your progress.
So it is a journey of course; it is a development. It is all about evolution.
Every individual being is all the time creating a self-destiny. And therefore you get what you deserve,